I may have had a revelation.

I’m a perfectionist/afraid of failure. I’ve known this for some years now. But now I realize that I also have horrible craftsmanship skills. I want everything to be perfect and nothing I do will ever be remotely good enough. And that’s why I have so much anxiety (well, at least one of the reasons why).

Humph

I see so much wonderful strega and dark mori fashion and I want to dress like that but then I put a skirt/several skirts on and it feels so wrong.

Like … nope. I’m a gentleman, damn it. I can’t get over my deep-seeded skirt-hate and body-image issues. Ugh. I just want to look like a witch and a dandy at the same time but I can’t seem to get it just right.